Delving into the Darkness
I have to admit, I am fascinated with the dark side of humanity. I wonder why some of us become unhinged, losing our minds. Or how some people have a defect in their brain making them "evil." There are different levels of darkness, IMO. Humans are complicated creatures and I believe even in the worst person, there is goodness. Even the evilest, must have some humanity remaining deep inside of them. I think we are powerless over who we become. We are the result of our DNA, our childhoods, our traumas, and all of our experiences, whether good or bad. We are built block by block. 

So that means, none of us are morally responsible for what we are forced to do as humans. We are like a preprogrammed robot. We believe we have free will when in reality, everything we do is dictated by determinism. I truly believe this. It’s based on science too. According to Einstein, we exist in a block universe, every generation is stacked, and time is not linear. The past, present, and future are happening simultaneously. Therefore everything that has happened, or will happen, has already happened.

What I believe, is that we are spiritual beings here for the human experience. We are here to learn. And it’s almost like we are at an amusement park. This is an adventure we are on. Although for some the adventure isn’t so fun. But still, that is for the spirit to learn from. If I look at humans this way, it is easier for me to not feel hateful towards the oppressors and people who thoughtlessly hurt other people. I can look at them objectively and dissect how they became the way they are.

Don’t get me wrong, it is still very upsetting to see all of the injustices in the world. To see the victimization. It does make me angry. That is my human reaction to witnessing such atrocities. We want to see accountability and justice. And there should be accountability and justice. Even if the perpetrator is technically not morally responsible. The suffering people, the victims, and the public deserve justice. And society needs to be kept safe.

So since we are not morally responsible, and since people are unpredictable creatures, should we not be kept safe from each other and ourselves? Why so many goddamn guns in the US? I watch a lot of true crime, and it’s always some unhinged person with access to guns. Too many guns! People don’t have to think about it. They can act on their base instincts and grab a gun. 90% of murders wouldn’t happen if there wasn’t such lenient access to firearms. 

Oh also, more than one "soul" can live inside a body. Since it is a ride we are on, and we aren’t in control. That, of course, means that multiple souls can be present in one body and are just unaware of each other. And I also think that maybe we come and go, into and out of, different bodies. That maybe a spirit does not stay for the entire life. That would make sense, because this way, for a crappy human experience, they can politely duck out and try out another person. That may sound far-fetched. To me, it makes sense.

When I was a child, I felt myself enter into my body. I didn’t recognize any of my surroundings or my family until I integrated into the person and was given their memories. Ha! No, I’m not crazy. I don’t have a fuken clue. I am imagining the reason for the experience I had. It can’t be disproven. It could be the way I imagine. All my weird ideas could be reality. I won’t know until I die. 

In conclusion, my philosophical viewpoints are what keep me from being hateful and angry about the world’s injustices. I do feel very angry sometimes, but I am later able to think about it rationally and understand why people are the way they are. It also helps me to be less judgmental of people who may not value social justice in the same way I do. Because I realize that it is not to do with having superior values, or that I am a better person than they are. We are all simply the people we are. That’s it. We are where we are, not through any special quality that makes us better or worse people. We just are.