If I won the lottery I would do my best to affect positive change for marginalized and oppressed groups of people facing injustice. Now keep in mind, this is going to be a lot of money. I would start a non-profit that finds the best programs to funnel money into. Of course, I would ethically invest so that we can continue working for the people and do some good in the world. 

Also, keep in mind that in this imaginary scenario, I am a younger person with endless amounts of energy. 

In my personal life, I would buy a large piece of property with a freshwater source. I would grow vegetables and fruit and nut trees. Of course, I would have chickens. I would grow grapes and make wine. Naturally there are also raspberries, strawberries, and blackberries also growing. I would have a large house, and it would be filled with like-minded people. In this imaginary scenario, they are friends and completely trustworthy. Naturally, I do not charge them anything to live there. In fact, it is their home, as well as mine. We live as if we are a community.

We open our home to abused women from time to time. This is a safe place, with no fear of unwelcome intruders. We are safely fenced in and you must have a code to enter. There is also a security guard. This is to protect the vulnerable and not because we want to keep people out. 

I always imagine a state-of-the-art children's playground. I imagine pathways for bike riding. I imagine glorious flowers and bushes. Of course, I would have a gardener and an arborist. I'd also have a landscaper. I would pay extremely well. We would have a saltwater pool. We would have a sauna. And, of course, we would have a hobby farm. But there would be full-time animal caretakers and a vet on staff. 

I might travel. But really, why would I need to? I still probably would like to see other parts of the world and learn about other cultures. 

Yeah. I believe in sharing our wealth, not hoarding it. There is too much selfishness in this world. Yes, we should obviously take care of our own families, but we should be considering the communities we live in as our families as well. We are all responsible for the children who need help. Anybody can have children, and let's be honest, a lot of parents are not equipped to raise children.

So, if I won the lottery, my non-profit would be funneling a large portion of of its wealth into helping vulnerable children. I'm too tired at the present moment, so in this imaginary scenario, I have a much smarter and a more alert team of people coming up with ways to do this. 

This is all I have for today, as I am recovering from a traumatic dream where my partner found another partner. In this dream, at first, I was happy and fine with it. But then I began to realize, "Wait a minute, if we are presently sleeping in the same bed, where in the goddamn hell is this new person going to sleep?" Then it began to sink in that it would be me needing to find another place to sleep. And then everything sunk in all at once, and I realized that we wouldn't all be living together as a happy family like I'd envisioned. I realized I no longer had a home or a loving partner. Additionally, my children now belonged to a different mother. 

I realize it was only a nightmare, but I often have these kinds of dreams where I am abandoned, and they are horrible for me. In other dreams, my partner is working for a cult and does not leave me any contact information so I never know if or when he is ever going to come home. In this recurring dream, the cult is forcing him against his will to stay and work on their commune. I wanted to rescue him, but he had not left me an address of where he would be. 

Ugh! Goddamn it! My partner is so unreliable in my dreams! Tbh, I was pissed off when I woke up. I was miserable for a good hour. Thankfully, by the time Joe came home, I felt much less homicidal, lol! 

Anyway, thanks again for reading my stuff, such as it is, coming from this unhinged mind, lol!