How do significant life events or the passage of time influence your perspective on life?

Make no mistake, the person who existed 30 years ago is not the person existing in this present moment. The individual who is writing today's goddamn prompt is a different consciousness altogether than the previous ones that existed: the ones pretending to live this dastardly godforsaken existence as if they were one person, living one life, where their experience of time is linear. No sir. 

The consciousness that previously inhabited this body was shallow and materialistic. She was competitive. She was a social butterfly. Yes, she did have some depth. The one trait that all of the previous consciousnesses share is a rage towards social injustice and a dislike of authority figures. 

The television and media enjoyed by those other consciousnesses has drastically changed over the years. Where they once enjoyed talk shows, Soap Operas, and shows like Beverly Hills 9021, this present individual enjoys a much higher quality of media. The one thing all of the previous selves have in common is that they all have a love for comedy. However, a lot of stuff previously creating a belly laugh, I would no longer find funny. For example, I remember having a fondness for Andrew Dice Clay. When I say "I" I am not referring to whoever I am right now. It's just easier to refer to past selves that way.

And make no mistake, I am not referring to all of the previous consciousnesses as if they are separate personalities, like we see in the psychiatric disorder DID. 

Who is this person existing now? It certainly is not the same person who enjoyed clubbing, spending money, and socializing in their early 20's. No sir. This is not the young mother who loved garage sales and having guests over for dinner. This is not the working mom, on the board of directors for a childcare center. This is not the drug addict, barely keeping her shit enough together so she wouldn't lose her family. 

A lot of mental health issues have followed all of the selves who've inhabited this body, though. They have presented themselves in greater or lesser degrees at various stages in life. It is only now where my anxieties and attachment issues are under control. So some things remain constant while other things change. I think that is just the way of things.

I am only existing in this present moment, so say hello. "Hi WordPress blog reader. Nice to meet you!" Now say goodbye, because whoever is going to be writing this goddamn blog tomorrow will not be I.  That is the sad truth. The illusion that we are experiencing linear time as one individual, makes us not want to blow our heads off with the knowledge of what is actually going on. The body we temporarily reside in provides us with memories that hold the information needed to exist as if we are one person living the entirety of this life. 

As proof that this person who is writing right now, is not the same consciousness as the person journaling in their teens and early 20's, I promise to one day share those journals, so all of you can have a good laugh. A few years ago, I transcribed all of it onto Microsoft Word. It was just too funny to not keep a record of. 

Anyway, I am done for today. If you didn't know my level of craziness before, you surely do now! Ha! 

Thank you for reading this!